Simply couldn’t resist doing this. Fancy a slice?
I just graduated from college, wow! Can you think of anything more depressing and trivial than that? It seems as though the older I get, the more I want to be a child again. Which is nuts because when I was in high school, I couldn’t wait to be older, more mature, more independent. I got my driving license at 16 and a half. Whereas, many of my friends didn’t drive until they were 18. Now that I have outlived this phase of my life, I would like nothing more than to crawl back into my mother’s womb and call it a day. I’m 21 years old. I don’t go out. Mainly because I work too much, partly because I’m broke, and wholly because I’m just too tired to move. Will I ever get a break? Or am I destined to be a workaholic like my father. If it comes down to it , I suppose I can live in a box on the street, right? Or is that not socially acceptable anymore? Who cares though really? Money , No money. Aren’t we all living just to die? Or is it that we are dying to just to live? Or killing ourselves just to live? I forget which one it is. Does it matter? At the end of the day, I make a decision and my life continues. It keeps going on. I guess I should just drink a coffee and get on with it already.
I recently started a job that I am not too passionate about. I honestly force myself to go to work each day and try my best to engage with the people around me. However, I honestly do not care. It may be wrong to take a job just because you need to make money, but really, Shouldn’t you enjoy the life you live.
Therefore, I have begun a mission to see how little i can care before I get fired. In the mean time I will also do the responsible thing and look for another job. In addition, I feel like shit because I work from 10am till 12am (sometimes 1am) 4 days of the week (60 plus hours) and don’t have much time for a social life or career advancements in my chosen field of Audiology. In addition, there is my lovely boyfriend, who I don’t get to spend much time with either. This world has come to a point where working like a slave to make a living overpowers the ability to do anything else. However, I don’t make much money either so my hopes to vacation or whatnot are also not probable.
I suppose what I should do is find a higher paying job, where I have to work less hours. However, If that was so easy I would have one by now. Well, I suppose I will just have to see what happens and start caring even less about the terrible job I have.
Till next time,
EpiCute » My cupcake’s so bright I gotta wear shades
I never really got into the blog scene but I am one to try. I recently graduated from Pace NYC with a degree in Communication Sciences and Disorders. What is that? You may ask. Speech Language Pathology and Audiology. Duh! Bonus points if you understand what ASHA and NSSLHA mean. Anyways, I was recently accepted into the Doctor of Audiology Program at the Long Island Consortium of Audiology (@ Adelphi, Hofstra, and St. John’s). I will be back on the grind soon enough, starting this fall. For the time being, I am trying to enjoy my last three months living in NYC. My lease is up at the end of August and chances are I will be moving to a place that is less expensive and with Parking Spaces! Yay!
My summer started last week but I already have 3 jobs that are keeping me busy. My goals for the summer are to save up enough money to get an apartment in September and not have to work so hard during grad school. Secondly, I want to open a cupcake business, in the hopes that this will continue to be lucrative throughout grad school.Lastly, I want to read more books.
I just began reading ” The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks” by Rebecca Skloot. It’s about this woman Henrietta Lacks who had her cells taken from her without her notice and duplicated. It “launched a medical revolution and a multimillion-dollar industry.” Most of book talks about Rebecca Skloot’s journey to find out more about Henrietta and her current family. However, All I really think about is the unethical doctors that made millions of dollars off Henrietta’s immortal cells. Money that her family never saw a dime of. It seems that the medical world only becomes more and more corrupt as the years proceed. As I begin my process toward a doctoral degree in audiology, I have to remember that, first and foremost, we are all people. period. We all deserve to be treated with copious amounts of care, understanding, and above all respect. My friend BB emailed me an excerpt from the book “Blink,” which discussed why doctors that are not liked are sued more than doctors that are liked. Apparently, it is not important how well you are in your field or at your job, but how much you are liked. Like I said , We are all people and people want to feel good when they visit your practice, work , or whatever it has you. Making personal connections that assure the client that you have their best interests at heart will get your further than looking at everything as purely analytical.
In previous years, I had ran for NSSLHA president and lost by a vote. Terrible because I would have been a great leader and Great because I didn’t have to deal with the BS politics and disorganization that I saw during this past year. However, one of our members ended up forging another members name (via email) in order to win some award for excellence within a chapter. However, if you know anything about ASHA or NSSLHA then you know that they pride their organization on being ethical. I just think it is sad that at such a young age I literally see everyone cheating in all of my classes. Unethical behavior is everywhere around me and I think: I am really just more ethical and moral than everyone else? or Am I just a Square for abiding by the rules? However, I know that cheating is not the way. I would feel terrible to cheat. It would literally ripe me apart mentally. I almost feel that cheat is another form of giving up. If I give up now and start cheating, I will never accomplish the things I desire in life. With hard work , comes great rewards. Perspiration is 99% of aspiration. Am I right? or Am I right?
To close off, I think colleges should require an ethics class to graduate with any degree. This world has become so tainted that a class dedicated solely to abiding rules/laws, proper human etiquette, and prompting general respect for others would do society wonders.
Thin little strands of hair float airlessly before my eye
A blur of vision
Soft cool blues vibrate my cochlea
Twirling upward with purple and navy undertones
dancing along my inner hair cells,
the basilar kind
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